It’s you 12 years into the future!
Soon over a decade will have passed and it’ll feel like just yesterday that you became a new Mom. You won’t worry about whether baby girl will sleep through the night anymore. In fact, you won’t have worried about that in years. In the big scheme of things, sleeping through the night will actually be the least of your worries. Somehow you thought it was the end of the world that you weren’t getting sleep. I understand it really does feel that way right now, but trying to make baby girl sleep through the night won’t cut it anymore.
Instead, that baby girl is going to be changing and developing into a lady. I know it seems really far away but actually, it’s not. You’ll be dealing with attitudes, buying bras, learning to relate to a child/young lady, and talking about scary stuff like puberty and sex. You’ll be praying prayers like, “Lord, help me to relate to this young lady you’ve blessed me with.”
You’ll be thinking about the fact that you only have 6 years left until she turns 18 and you’ll want to hang on to the time left with everything you’ve got. In fact, you’ll be a little scared of the day that she’ll leave, instead of wondering if you’ll ever get any sleep.
Somehow having the house in perfect order, getting all your work done, and having everyone think you have it all together won’t matter anymore. In fact, you aren’t actually going to care what people think about her behavior!
In 12 years, you will wish you were a little less strict and that you didn’t begrudge the time you had to spend at home with your daughter. You will recognize that having the opportunity to be a stay-at-home Mom is one of the biggest gifts you could ever have received. No, you won’t always love it even then but you will begin to recognize that it has molded and shaped you into the woman of God you were created to be. You will recognize that you are extremely blessed to have such a supportive and loving husband who works what you consider “way too many hours.” I know it’s hard but trust me, it really is true “that the days are long, but the years are short!”
You will also recognize that marriage takes a lot of work and that there were times over the last 12 years that your marriage almost didn’t make it. And that a lot of that was your own fault because you were so terribly selfish that you couldn’t accept the blessing you had right in front of you. You’ll be glad that (most of the time) you and your husband took the time to have decently regular date nights even when you weren’t feeling it. Sure, hubby hasn’t done everything right either but he really is a great guy even though he doesn’t always measure up to some of the husbands you see around you. You’ll actually begin to understand the saying, “the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence.”
Someday you’ll also realize that the things that once mattered to you, aren’t the same anymore. Society expects certain things and you don’t really measure up to that standard and you’ll actually be okay with that!
But the biggest thing you’ll have realized is how valuable you are in the eyes of God! You’ve been lonely a lot over the years and you still are at times, but in the midst of that, you’ve learned that God never leaves you nor forsakes you. That God thinks you’re absolutely gorgeous and wonderful and he always wants to hang out with you, even when it feels like no one else does. So you won’t have made it yet, but more and more the truth of God’s Word will have gotten a hold of you and now even when you’re lonely, you have begun to listen to the still, small voice of Daddy God, telling you that You are wonderful, you are fearfully and wonderfully made, and you are a piece of art crafted by an amazing heavenly Father.
Your Future Self
P.S. To all my blog readers, I pray that this letter to myself will encourage and inspire you in your everyday journey that often feels mundane and hard. You are not alone. We’ve all been there and we aren’t getting it right all the time. 🙂
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